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[jacktellslies]

My questions are about anger. I never was an angry person when I was young. I still don't take these things personally, exactly. It is an issue, though, when the personal is political, as it so often is. Lately all I can do is ignore it. Ignore the larger structures and patterns. Don't read about it. Don't think of it, because there is so very little that I can do about most of it.

So far, this time around, my experiments have been about verbs, not nouns. I am wondering about how one works with certain energies, how one accomplishes certain goals. The gods have become partners more than friends. (It is interesting. I am unused to it, but not uncomfortable with it, for the time being.) But when I think of this anger, I think of Saint Joan, and I think of Saint Sebastian.

I've been too much the martyr, in the past. I've allowed terrible and inconvenient things to happen to me for the perceived good of others. I've been ever so polite. But I grew tired of it. And instead there is this anger.

Why are both of my martyrs soldiers? Rather, how? How does one know when to fight, and when to yield? How does one accomplish anything? How does one know how to do so? I want to protect what is ours and mine. I want to be kind and fair. I want to create change, but I want to feel at peace. I know the stories, but I do not understand how one can hold both.

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[schizometric.livejournal.com]

I have no answers to these questions, but I am searching for them myself, as well.

I fear the answer will be there is none.

quick note of practicality

[paisleycat.livejournal.com]

So, orientation happened. It was long, but I got your messages. Tattoo appt is great great great- do you want to meet somewhere beforehand? I won't be in town(flying earlier that day to KY) the day of the Lithium Picnic et others gallery opening. I showed the idea to Alex though and he got very excited. Everything good is happening that weekend. Almost everything. Placebo is coming to town Oct 6(I think that's the day). I have no social commitments this weekend if you want to hangout sometime...*bats eyelashes at you*

Re: quick note of practicality

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Sure, that would be lovely. I found out yesterday that I am scheduled to work that day because my boss keeps switching my regular days off, but I should be able to fix that.

I am sorry that the city is getting interesting without you. I'll kick it.

Oh! I did not know! Do you know how much tickets will be? Meow.k

I work from twelve to eight today and tomorrow. Let me know if you'd like to do something after.

[thereallinda.livejournal.com]

i can't be sure, but i believe the time of martyrs is past. there was a time to die for a greater cause, but i don't think our present day, techno-gadget, hyper-connected state is mindful of this. so with a nod to the martyrs and what they taught us, another way has to be found. i don't have any answers, but like you, i can barely stand to hear of what is going on and i'm confused not only when to yield, but how to fight and sometimes i can't even figure out what the damned battle is about. or maybe it's that there are just too many.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

On a completely different note, my friends Alex and Meredith moved to Philadelphia recently, and I have been telling them about you and Bernie a lot. Meredith is in love with plants, and I realized that you really had to meet the other day when she pointed out some poke growing out of someone's stoop. Also, I have not seen you in far too long, and I miss you both. Could we perhaps all get together sometime?

[thereallinda.livejournal.com]

o! definitely we should get together. labor day wkend is kinda out due to family stuff, but after that? i'd love to meet your friends.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

That would be wonderful!