Merlin.

[jacktellslies]

If there is anything you've ever wanted to ask me, you should ask me. I needn't know who you are.

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[ratherunlikely.livejournal.com]

Mind adding me back? We were mutual LJ friends for a while, but then I paid to have my handle changed and during that process I somehow accidentally removed myself from everyone's friend list. I wasn't able to tell you about it before because you don't allow non-friends to comment on your journal entries, but I saw my opening with this entry and the rest is history. ;]

♥

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Oh, of course! And my apologies. By the by, I love that you have an It icon. I adore that film.

[(Anonymous)]

What can you, or do you, sexually enjoy with physical males that you can not, or do not, with females?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

The male orgasm is neat. (Nearly all orgasms are pretty interesting and good, actually.) I like that it can more or less be aimed. I like it when they come on bellies/faces/backs/et cetera. And I really rather like giving head. I can do that with a strap-on, but I think of it as a different game entirely.

[(Anonymous)]

If you were to name the one choice in life that would never want to make again, what would it be?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

I never again want to have to choose between my own mental health and safety, and abandoning my friends.

[(Anonymous)]

Do you dream mostly about people you know, or about people your mind makes up, or about things other than people, or abstractly? Do you remember them often when you wake up? Do your dreams ever come true? Do you dream about sex very often? Are your dreams in color or black and white? Do you think your dreams are often trying to send a message, or are they just dreams? Do you often have nightmares?

Also, you are very lovely and I like hugging you.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Bits of both. If there is a large cast, there will usually be one or two people I know while the rest will be filled in by dream extras of varying levels of specificity. Sometimes a person I don't know is meant to be a best friend I never actually had, or every girl I've ever loved squished into one, or just members of a crowd. Mostly, I think, there are people. My dreams come in waves. It may be related to my menstrual cycle, or how deeply I sleep, although I've not tracked either yet. I will remember many of my dreams for a week, and then none at all for some time. My dreams change me, sometimes. I think of that as a kind of coming true. I do not dream of sex every time that I remember dreaming, but it is not a completely uncommon topic. They are in colour, but sometimes the colour is just there, not accomplishing anything, and sometimes it is bright, like jewels. Those dreams are almost always important. Sometimes dreams are only my head tossing ideas about. Sometimes they are more actively questioning or challenging or giving me hints. My nightmares also come in waves. Most of the time they are uncomfortable and unsettling more than terrifying, but I am afraid and sad when I wake from them.

Why thank you! I am certain that I am fond of you, too.

[(Anonymous)]

why is your bed a boat? because you are a pirate?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

My room and my bed feel like their own separate little world in my house and in my city and in my life. It is mine, and I refuse to dock.

[(Anonymous)]

What is your view of God these days? Does it affect your behavior? Should it? Do you believe in right and wrong?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

My gods are quieter than they used to be. This has been a very secular year. But I believe that nearly all things are true, but that one only needs to chose to interact with certain bits of it, or none of it at all. I still work with crow, and wolf, and bear. I'm still smitten with my saints. I think that most things are either benevolent or misunderstood.

Yes and no. Perhaps.

I live by my own moral code. I try not to judge others by it too much, but I don't always succeed. It has a lot to do with waste, and work, and people.

[(Anonymous)]

Describe your most directly supernatural experience? How old were you? Where were you? Has time changed your perception of it?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

I've met two ghosts, I think, and I've felt ridden by the gods, and I've been spoken to by things older and bigger than me. I was six when I met the first ghost, in the bedroom in my mum's house. Things have happened in other places and times since then, and time and age have not changed most of it too terribly much.

[brni.livejournal.com]

hey. i'm older and bigger than you. *smile*

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Yes, I meant you. Hee.

[(Anonymous)]

what's the sluttiest thing you've ever done?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Does not compute. Rephrase?

[(Anonymous)]

How would you feel about paying for sex?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

I've thought about it. My sex drive is pretty high and at times feels sort of unmanagable. If I weren't a poor kid, it probably would have happened at least once by now. I'm fascinated by sex work. I like listening to the people who do it.

[cynical-ghost.livejournal.com]

I am very much afraid I don't have a question for you right now, though there is much I'd love to know about you. Friendship is about discovery and secret languages.

The reason I don't have a question is because my brain is still full of this painting: Untitled

Thank you so much for recommending I paint her. It was wonderful fun and very soothing. I'm posting her here b/c I wanted you to see her first.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

*Gasps* Oh, gods. She's beautiful. I absolutely love it. For how much will she sell? Do you ever make prints?

[cynical-ghost.livejournal.com]

I will gladly send you a print. I just bought some watercolor paper for my printer. I'll try to get it sent out this week. I'm very glad you like her!

Oddly enough, I never sell my paintings though I don't mind selling my masks. For me it is the difference between dontating blood and donating organs. And I dream of having a house where I can hang my art on the walls.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Oh my goodness! I will send you pictures of where she will go in my room. I still owe you so many mailed things. Did I ever send you the bloodstone I found for you, or did I fail at that, too?

[cynical-ghost.livejournal.com]

That would be extremely lovely! I've no bloodstone from you but I would not consider that a failing, just a small delay. ;-)

Oh -- the Tilda painting is untitled. Should you feel moved to name her, I would be grateful as I keep calling her "That Tilda painting, with branches."

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Naming things is hard. I shall think on it. I showed the picture to some friends, and they adored it. One recommended that you perhaps send some things in to Interview magazine. She says that they occasionally use such art. She is a smart kid, so I am sure that she would not recommend a magazine that was lame.

[cynical-ghost.livejournal.com]

That is a very good idea. I will see what their submission rules are. I used to have a subscription to Interview ages ago and thought the pictures were wonderful. I use to cut them up for friendship books.

I never think of such things... I never think of my paintings as lucrative the way masks have been for me.

Thank your friend for me! :-D

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Good luck! Let us know how it goes.

[http://users.livejournal.com/overture_/]

Hello.
I don't mean to be quite so direct, but what do you consider your gender & sexuality to be?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

No apologies required! Direct is good.

Complicated. Hee. I consider myself to be a boy, somewhere between genderqueer and trans. I'm usually pretty happy about being biologically female, though. As for sexuality, I'm queer. I like boys and girls, but I like everybody else just a bit more. I'm kind of a fetish kid.

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

I like boys and girls, but I like everybody else just a bit more.

this makes me glad I know you. (well, I was glad before.)

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Hee. Thanks. *smiles*

[onooyes.livejournal.com]

do you mind if i add you? you seem simply fascinating.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Please do! (Saint Sebastian is my very favourite.)

[sora-vandel.livejournal.com]

Would you mind befriending me? Your posts are ever so enlightening.

Oh and I would also like to know if you have a favorite poetic piece or opera (that is, if you like opera).

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

Sure. *smiles*

I'm really fond of Algernon Charles Swinburne, especially A Match and a few other things. I was raised with Carmen and The Magic Flute, and I am in love with both.

[violet-wine.livejournal.com]

Where do you live? A simple question I know, but I cannot recall. At the moment I am combating my allergies to the season of Spring, so my wit is not as sharp as it could be.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

I'm living in the downtown/South Philly area of Philadelphia, just now.

[thereallinda.livejournal.com]

do you believe fish have souls? could this be why, when you gut them, poetry happens?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

That would seem to explain it. *smiles* Souls would be a good enough word for it. I think that they were alive, and they died so that we could live. I think that they are worthy of quite a lot of respect because of that.

[paisleycat.livejournal.com]

What is your history with the labyrinth symbol?

*pets you*

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

I've always approved of it, but it is mostly a symbol of the way I had to deal with the aftermath of getting raped. I mostly didn't talk about it or deal with it until well after it had happened, and once I did start, it felt like picking at scabs. I was only thinking about it more, and nothing was changing about it. It was stagnant. The moment things really shifted, that I was able to leave it all as something that happened, but that was not mine anymore, was when I reached the centre of the labyrinth in the Cathedral of Hope in Pittsburgh. It has been a good map for other things, too. It is nice to be reminded that sometimes one can feel very close to people, things, concepts, right away, but that the path is longer, that one must circle around something quite a bit before one finds a true centre in it, and that one must come back out again at the end.

Meow. My house has been a strange place. Come to Philadelphia soon, please.

[brni.livejournal.com]

(assuming that we all participate in whatever divinity exists) if you were able to retroactively insert one book, chapter, verse, line, phrase, or word into the bible, such that it would have been there from whatever time that part of the document had been written, what would it be, where would it go, and why?

which book, chapter, verse, line, phrase or word would you strike out?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

I'd make it more clear that the church is not a structure or a hierarchy or a set of rules, but a community, that it is less concerned with the afterlife and more concerned with the way things are now. Connected to that, I'd maybe underline all of the bits about god being the judge of things, not us, and loving your neighbor, and not doing stupid and horrible things in god's name. I'd get rid of the part where Christ tells Peter that his decisions hold sway in heaven and earth. I always got the feeling that its inclusion was horribly, horribly wrong.