decisions.

it should be noted that usually, choice is one of my favourite things. however, at the moment, i am being selfish, and small, and stupid, and wishing that decisions would simply be made for me. the classes for which i'm registered next semester are amazing. i miss my family so. philadelphia is a place that i love. but then, i love it here, too. and i just got a job that i like after not having one for so long, and if i go home, i know that i will not find another. i need to be making money again. i need to be working. i'm so tired of feeling useless. it's been a year. i can't let this go. i don't know. what am i doing with my life?