save the empire.

[jacktellslies]

so, i'm a monk again. i have hours and hours to fill with reading things, which is kind of neat. this might be a strange thing to say, and please do not confuse this with some residual belief in progress, but just now, i think i might be somewhere around the smartest that i have ever been. it feels good. this project has given me reason to learn a lot, particularly in directions that, previously, i'd been interested in, but accepted passively as it happened in my direction far more than i looked for it. and my classes this semester, two of them, anyway, are challenging and infuriating and not at all what i thought they'd be and, sometimes, actually hard. they are not even hard in the way that means that there is a lot of work to get down, and time constraints, and that sort of frustration. sometimes i only just barely understand it. it's the most amazing thing. and i'm learning math, little bits at a time. it makes no sense at all, yet, and i love it. i wish i was still living with kaitlin so i'd see her ever and i could ask her questions. my roommates call me willow, although, to be more accurate, they might call me robin, because she is the one who taught me not to be complacent, not to let questions hang in the air. my superpowers are the internet and, now, my long lost gigantic dictionary.

and, of course, when i say that i am a monk, what i mean is that i am single, which, just now, is neither surprising nor really sad. nor is it permanent. (mayhaps i am more than a little naive.) but we are on a break. we think it will last for a week, but if it needs more time, that is ok. and this feels better, because now, rather than wondering when things will end or when the awful will stop, i can focus on getting things done and be excited about eventually having my boyfriend back again. she's decided to go by parker, now, by the way, as there is already a bill in the house and on the front end. william parker webb. there will soon be drama or good things at whole foods regarding trans issues. (a note is that this is totally a store specific thing. my old store gave me a nametag that read jack with no questions asked and a little bit of encouragement.)

so, it would seem, i'm single. so, if you're in the mood for pity sex, i'm available. i'm just saying.

but i'm a monk, so this is really a week for long studies and marginal notes and poems about cats and masturbating all the god damned time. oh, and tea.

it is nearly thanksgiving, and after that winter. liz and kaitlin, will you be in philadelphia at all? spending all night at the pub might save my life.

Comments

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

i don't know about pity sex, but i'm certainly up for pity hugs and food and things if you'd like, in a spare moment between studies and notes and masturbating and cat poems.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

that would be amazing, actually.

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

yay. what days are good for you? pretty much any day is good for me at the moment.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

hrm. thursday, perhaps? or wednesday.

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

okay, wednesday maybe? i could come over to where you are, or we could both go to eat somewhere else.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

awesome. either works for me. i just have to leave for class a bit before two.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

hullo. *smiles* around what time would you like to meet up tomorrow? and have you any ideas regarding potential foodthings?

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

I would like to meet up at twelve o'clock, if that's okay. Or one o'clock if you'd rather.

I don't know much about foodthings if we're eating not-at-your-house, because it depends on where we go, and the only places I know near work are all things like Subway and things.

if we'll be eating at your house, do you like grilled cheese?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

twelve would be perfect.

actually, i do not like grilled cheese very much. have you ever eatten at maoz? i only just found them; they are a vegetarian fast food falafel place around third and south. do you like such things? do you have other ideas?

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

that sounds good!

I don't have any other ideas, no.

shall we meet there, or at your house?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

methinks you should decide, as you are the one who must get back to work. if you like, in fact, i could go pick things up and bring them back to my house before you get here. (i can call you with the menu. it is very short.)

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

actually, that would be really good. (i got in late today for no particularly good reason.) could you?

a coworker's phone is 701-6125.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

of course.

i assume you go by thomas at work, yes?

[marnanel.livejournal.com]

I do, but they will know who you mean if you call me Marnanel.

[whatifilied.livejournal.com]

if i have any control of my life, I will be in philadelphia for thanksgiving and would like nothing better than to see you and spend all night or more in the pub or wherever. I miss you a lot.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

that would be amazing. i hope you can make it. i miss everyone so very much. was everything alright when i called? how goes the job hunt for you? is kaitlin living with you yet? do you ever actually see her?

[randiriel.livejournal.com]

Pity sex!?

Damn the constraints of time and space. Damn them to hellfire and brimstone!

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

hee! meow meow. i love you, dearest. you're my favourite ever, and all i really want out of life is a teleportation device, one end of which is stationed in your closet or under your bed.

[randiriel.livejournal.com]

And I love you, Mister. You're my favorite ever too.

Someday I'll invent a teleportation device. Or have made enough money that I can visit you and whisk you off to romantic and fantastical lands of whimsy. Either way, it'll be most excellent.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

oh! thank you, sir. you are kind.

i have a plot brewing, where i may become a dorm mistress at a very expensive private boarding school for girls to which a friend of mine used to go. they are paid absurd amounts of money to not do very much. should this happen, more than a little bit of this money will go to travelling and adventures, and i hope that most of them will include you.

[randiriel.livejournal.com]

This. Is an excellent plan.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

shall we choose destinations by getting tipsy and throwing darts at globes? i happen to be in posession of one globe, three darts, and quite a bit of alcohol. all that i am missing is you.

[robinelaine.livejournal.com]

I just want you to know that I was very deeply moved by what you said about me in this entry, and that I hope you are doing all right. I miss you!

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

you really did change the way i think, face. thanks.

i want to get to pittsburgh so badly. i miss everyone so much.

[dandyhighwoman.livejournal.com]

Sir, I don't quite know you well enough to jump on the pity sex wagon, but I offer you good and sympathetic thoughts, and a raincheck for a hug...

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

you are generous and kind. thank you.

[brni.livejournal.com]

hrmmm. pity sex? i should be happy to oblige, tho the only pity would be that i fear i'm not much your type...

perhaps in our next lives?

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

it's a date.

[brni.livejournal.com]

*marks it on calendar*

if you find yourself bored this saturday evening, linda and krys and hopefully the mini-kate and i were planning on having sushi, and not a one of us would complain overly loudly were you to join us.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

oh, that would be lots of fun! may i let you know tomorrow or friday?

[brni.livejournal.com]

certainly. we'll be calling for reservations sat mid-afternoon. so if you let us know any time before that, it'll work. and if you let us know after, we can typically add on.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

awesome, thanks.

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

hello, sir. i'm sorry i got back to you later than i'd planned, but may i still join you for sushi?

fishies

[brni.livejournal.com]

yes, of course. prolly sometime btw 6 and 7, not sure yet. will call you when i have more details.

you are, of course, welcome to come by any time.

Re: fishies

[earlofgrey.livejournal.com]

rad, thanks.

and thanks for that, too.