it's astounding. time is fleeting.

oh my goodness i'm wearing a nazareth shirt and mismatched nazareth socks to school today! and there was a hole in the toe of the sock so i had to darn it even though i'm late! this is so exciting!

this house is like russia with eyes cold and grey.

well screw you too then, special effects hair dye!

i bleached it, and then i dyed it twice. twice! my hair is so not in any way purple. i'm an angry mister dreadful, see? roar!

i guess one of the problems with habitually ignoring name brands is that you can't remember the brand that you like. people with funny coloured hair, what works? what do you like?

i might mix what i have left with the little bit of pink i have left over from dublin and see what happens.

also:

i would like to be bleeding now please, thank you. but i just did ten days ago. to say the least i'm truly disappointed.

i wrote a bit today. it is about complicity, othering, a lack of control. mostly it's about vagina dentata. i'm not sure about the shape of it yet. it's much more disjointed than things i used to do. i haven't really written in some time, so it makes sense that some of the non-linear things i like so much would have found their way inside. i think it upset me, though. minus the hair, and the whining about menstruation, i thought i was in a rather good mood. but my family is home now, and i'm quiet. mum tried to touch my hair and i recoiled. i did again when my sister got close to me to look at something on the computer. i feel small. i think i'd like company, but i'd seem to be afraid of people at the moment. i'll just build a nice brick wall around myself, and leave a little window to talk to you through.