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i talked to my mother: she has made her decision, and, although this is unexpected, i am now less sure that i have made mine. i am a lover, i think, more than i would have liked to admit before.

i walked in the rain, thinking of the eurythmics but listening to depeche mode. i was so wet that my skirt (i was wearing one of those. i am now wearing another, for it is dry.) was weighed down and that i'd just stop and laugh and laugh at the clouds. i loved it, and i felt like jane eyre, and i thought about my future.

i went to visit friends, and i was told to write about salt, so i will: in a month, whatever i do, i will feel like lot's wife.

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Date: 2004-07-26 06:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crushablepink.livejournal.com
too cryptic- please send decoder ring.

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Date: 2004-07-26 06:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] earlofgrey.livejournal.com
*laughs* oops. sorry.

i am trying to decide whether i should stay in pittsburgh, where i have lots of friends and a job and happiness, and the assurance that when i return to philadelphia in a few months for school i will be able to transfer to the whole foods there, or go back to philadelphia now, where i have family, which includes a cute baby, and a semester filled with amazing classes. should i stay, i would only be taking one semester off, and then returning. my mum thinks i should come home. before that, i thought i was equally happy about both options, but now i'm not so sure.

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Date: 2004-07-26 06:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crushablepink.livejournal.com
ah i see! which one is winning out?

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Date: 2004-07-26 06:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] earlofgrey.livejournal.com
i don't know! i think maybe pittsburgh, though... and i feel a little guilty about that... ack. i don't know what i'm doing! i think maybe going back to school is the right thing to do, but being happy and then being able to go back to school and have a job is the right thing to do too, right? because i've been so sad about not having a job and i'm finally feeling better and i don't want to lose that. decisions are hard.

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Date: 2004-07-27 04:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] camarguais.livejournal.com
What was the decision?

Are you feeling more femme lately, then? Or are you a boy in a skirt?

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Date: 2004-07-27 09:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] earlofgrey.livejournal.com
philadelphia.

the summer forces me into femininity a bit, because it becomes more difficult to hide things under less clothing. yesterday i felt like a bit of a girl, but i think usually i'm mostly a boy in a skirt, when it happens. when i was packing to come here, i was leaving girlthings behind, but felt that skirts were ok, because all of the boys i like wear them anyway.

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Date: 2004-07-27 10:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] netherunicorn.livejournal.com
::hug::

whatever decision you make, make the one that will bring you the most happiness. true, some people miss you ::cough:: and would love to see you again, but as long as you are happy, i'm sure that they (we) will be too.

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Date: 2004-07-27 10:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] earlofgrey.livejournal.com
if i knew which one would make me happier, that would be easier. i'm leaning towards here, though. i shall have to return to get cold weather clothes and things, however, so hanging out will certainly have to occur.

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Date: 2004-07-27 10:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] netherunicorn.livejournal.com
i think there sounds fab, darling ^^

yes, when you return, i will have to abduct you.

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