falling on my head like a new emotion.
Jul. 26th, 2004 08:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
i talked to my mother: she has made her decision, and, although this is unexpected, i am now less sure that i have made mine. i am a lover, i think, more than i would have liked to admit before.
i walked in the rain, thinking of the eurythmics but listening to depeche mode. i was so wet that my skirt (i was wearing one of those. i am now wearing another, for it is dry.) was weighed down and that i'd just stop and laugh and laugh at the clouds. i loved it, and i felt like jane eyre, and i thought about my future.
i went to visit friends, and i was told to write about salt, so i will: in a month, whatever i do, i will feel like lot's wife.
i walked in the rain, thinking of the eurythmics but listening to depeche mode. i was so wet that my skirt (i was wearing one of those. i am now wearing another, for it is dry.) was weighed down and that i'd just stop and laugh and laugh at the clouds. i loved it, and i felt like jane eyre, and i thought about my future.
i went to visit friends, and i was told to write about salt, so i will: in a month, whatever i do, i will feel like lot's wife.
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Date: 2004-07-26 06:14 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-07-26 06:21 pm (UTC)i am trying to decide whether i should stay in pittsburgh, where i have lots of friends and a job and happiness, and the assurance that when i return to philadelphia in a few months for school i will be able to transfer to the whole foods there, or go back to philadelphia now, where i have family, which includes a cute baby, and a semester filled with amazing classes. should i stay, i would only be taking one semester off, and then returning. my mum thinks i should come home. before that, i thought i was equally happy about both options, but now i'm not so sure.
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Date: 2004-07-26 06:24 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-07-26 06:35 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-07-27 04:06 am (UTC)Are you feeling more femme lately, then? Or are you a boy in a skirt?
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Date: 2004-07-27 09:31 am (UTC)the summer forces me into femininity a bit, because it becomes more difficult to hide things under less clothing. yesterday i felt like a bit of a girl, but i think usually i'm mostly a boy in a skirt, when it happens. when i was packing to come here, i was leaving girlthings behind, but felt that skirts were ok, because all of the boys i like wear them anyway.
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Date: 2004-07-27 10:02 am (UTC)whatever decision you make, make the one that will bring you the most happiness. true, some people miss you ::cough:: and would love to see you again, but as long as you are happy, i'm sure that they (we) will be too.
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Date: 2004-07-27 10:58 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-07-27 10:07 pm (UTC)yes, when you return, i will have to abduct you.